Sucks So Bad

did not realize how much it sucks being alone

wanting and desiring a type of love that once was

leads me into nights like this when i feel i'm causing the rain to fall

i had no other choice but to force separation

i am too afraid to try again, too afraid of things falling back into those imperfect places, afraid we'd hurt each other again
afraid to crumble a heart that's already into pieces

do you know how hard it is to piece together a heart that is fragmented

what an emotional and grueling task it is... let's not mention the tears falling that make this process ever more Straining

i didn't want to at all, even when i was terribly mad at you

want to walk away, but there were no options

and i broke your heart so bad, it was better for you that i started to...

Run.

As fast as i could even though it would suck so bad being alone