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American Sibling

August 29, I write.

Kow that I am New Orleans
Not too long ago
a cancer of some sort hit me
It began silently and built up quickly
Before anyone knew it, I was sinking,
all of my vitals were failing
I called on surrounding siblings
of America
I wasn't worth their time to invest in.

Dear Siblings of America
Fine government that you are
Where were you when I needed you
Why were you not protecting me
I was here drowning, holding on to my nothings
I waited and trusted you
You, in your pride filled position
Were you too busy for my saving
You knew the path you needed to go
Still you decided not to show
Or did you
How long did it take for you to See
I was in this unlivable state
The job you should have been doing
Casually became our priority
But it wasn't so for you
I've been DISmantled and UProoted
No amount of money...
Can revive or bring back the life I once held
When eviction hit
But even so, here I lay with this illness
Thank you for being my comforter
If I knew I had to fight on my own
Why is it that our …

She Shot

I supply you with words like these
noting your enjoyment in an eclectic me
Satisfaction awaited fulfillment
Embedded energy awaiting to be free
moments with you are irreplaceable
when I think of walking away, I can't
Heroin, that's you
pull me back in with invisible persuasion
I become a doped up addict
can't enough of your loving' and comfort
Exciting casualties make me selfish
I didn't want to give in
but something about you made me


Tell me what it is about you
That's got me going insane
Every time when I'm around you

I love the chemistry we make
Who would've ever thought
That it would be this way

Think about you constantly
Can't get you out my head
Your mind and being are gorgeous

You make me do some "crazy" things
You claim you are the victim
Now you know that's not the truth

I'm wild, no, no, no
I'm reserved
I attmept to hide but it shows
This is what you do

Make It Count

-Things are so different now
I'm doing big things, moving forward
Scared and intimidated of whats ahead
-Out here on my own
No one person to push me
Concentrated and focused on one center
-Filled with determination
Filled with something to prove
Filled with enough faith to carry me through
-I want it badly
I can see it clear as day
Anticapating graduation day
-This moment was timed perfectly
HE knew my mind and spirit weren't ready
Just when friends come in as missed ones go
-Doors open
Ones we once knew, we let go
And I prepare my mind for something new
-Far from home
Travel a journey on search of comfort
Humble my mind, humble my spirit to protect me
-Stress not
Walk, learn, and grow
Dismissing distractions
-Flowing weight free
Getting through this with all of me
Moving full force with uncontrollable energy


I think of you often
And I start to miss you
Memories of you and I are like
a rusted nail cemented into rotten wood
I feel lost and I often times want to call you
My pride, my stubborness won't allow me to
Thought I was free of you, but I'm not
Do you think of me anymore, often?
Am I completely erased from your head...


Be careful
Theres a shooter on loose
His charge is that of a bull
It can prompt conclusion to your thought
Or contribute to a shift in direction
Rethink, rethink, rethink you will do
He's bold and sassy
With his preference and selection of idiom
What is said might be truth but it burns
Be careful what you say
He is keen and he's fleet-footed with his words
I let too many words to lapsus linguae
Without analyzing what I said
Before you knew it
Bang... Bang...
He shot me in the my soul
Went straight through my core
Now look at me
Powerless lying there
My game is over Shooter
I start it over
Maybe I'll get further

Enjoyable You

I woke up this morning
You were on my mind
Can I have all of you
You make me smile
All of the time
I can't help it when I talk to you
When your not around
You're still Mr. Available
I love that about you
O sugar you
Got me wrapped like a vine to a fence
Don't you know what you do
I went outside
Saw the bright blue sky
Started to think
You miss me
Just as much as I miss you
And though its hardly said
I think its true
You allowed an old friend in
And comforted me
O honey you
Got me growling
Wouldn't you laugh at that
You Lion Man
Give me much to think about
Grrr, say it for me
Make us both laugh
You silly Lion Man

I Know

She is my most adorable, wonderful , spirit-filled, slightly filled up with about 6% of the drama queen outfit She is beautiful in her way She and I have gained a bond that is noticeable among many She reads my non-verbal communication as if it were a restaurant menu; I'm that easy I read into her emotions, I know when she's upset I know when she wants to talk, I know when she thinking to deep into a resolvable situation I know when she's about to cry and I know when she is about to laugh. She is ideal to myself I know because she is me And I am her

Time Has Come

The time has come for us to part
Move on from here
Plant a seed for new beginning
I want to win
With nothing to hold me down
There is something more for me
Something I can see
I've been showered with blessings
I'm clearing my mind to receive
Removing all the cobwebs
That clouded my sight
Something from within told me
To give up the fight I was fighting
It was straining and exhausting me
But no regretting the lesson
It was there for me to learn
But now that I've dwelled there
For a while
Its time for me to move on
This chapter belongs to me
Goodbye to old traditions
Goodbye to all fed lies
I won't stick to your standards
I'm a bird who was made to fly

Let Me Be

Did you find what you were looking for
Made sure you had all of your facts together
Put your psychology voodoo on me
Catch me, Catch me in a lie
You read past what you really should
Finding clues to decipher this worded map
Can I just be who I am
Without questioning my reasoning
Why does it have to be about some one else
Should it always be untold stories
I provide you with enough to subside the hunger
Hunger and greed for assumption
Take things as they are
Respect my state of mind
Why should I have to explain whats
Behind the words that I write
Believe me, but you won't
Look at me normal, you can't
Tell me how should this be handled
Do I loose you over my sentiments
What law was made that I did not know
I provide you with what I want you to see
A helpless soul, a forgiving artist
Remove the spell of insecurities
Respect what I have to say
And if you disown me
How selfish that would be
Our friendship has no ground
I love you, forgiven you
False accusing, I've accepted
At times I've deserved
But not …


My people
Why do you turn to closed doors
How far will you go
How far can you get
Turn to me, let me explain life
Know who you are
Don't be who you aren't
BE the most original
BE your own leader
Your own decider
Allow not the screen to rule
To rule your perception
Allow it not to influence you
Its not so important
Love you more than what others might give
Sing your own tunes
Form the difference in your life
My people
Our young are dying
From lack of knowledge
Malnutrition of spirit and mind
Make us okay
Provide a future
Stop making excuses
Our children don't have to suffer the pain
Who asked their opinion in regards to
Taking this life on
Keep them away from ignorance
As best as you can
Up their standards and expectations
Give them treasures
Show them self worth
Explain fighting won't solve everything
My people
Provide a way
Young girl, close your developed thighs
Develop the mind first
You have not yet mastered any womanhood
With your legs wide open
Know that those treasures are not irreplacable
My people

Diary p.9

Excitement filled my face
You saw I was happy by looking in my eyes
And you were right
I love being with you
Around you, underneath you, on the phone with you
Loving you hurts, and I'm thinking we were a mistake
But I can't help gazing
Constant daydreaming
How can it be ignored
Wanna run away with you
No one must know about us
The box in which are feelings and thoughts reside
Is starting to over flow
You and I are the perfect fit
But in some sense are not allowed to mesh
Many would disapprove
But I know what my feelings are about you
I'm starting not to care
Tell me how to fix the mess we have involved ourselves in
I'll be good just with you
We cry, we laugh
We can't get enough of the other

When Its Like This

Come here boy
Let me let you know
I am about to rock ya world
You think you know what your getting into
Spare me, cause you know nothing
Got your eyes glued to this
Don't fool your self with anticipated faded talent
Whisper a few details in ya ear
Goosebumps take control of you
As my lips slightly touch your skin
Feel your body overcome with excitement
Don't know what I have
Waiting in store for you
Swing my hair when I walk away
Wink my eye before I hit the corner
Give you something extra
For you to think about
This is how I keep me on your mind
Can't wait to show you what you need
See you next time at a grown up spot
Come in with an all white
V flows down into my valley
Silver white stilettos step in the door
Get my mood right with Kelly's Like This
Catch my eye with your brute like lion swagger
Rolling like the King of the Jungle
Watch it sweetie
I might have to take you off your throne
Tell you, no better yet, show you
How good things happen
Get you wide open with
My scent that paralyzes you

Scared of This

I'm scared
Don't know how or what when to say
How do I move you?
Move your mood in my way
Can I make things work in favor of me?
Can't really express myself
Tell what I should do
How do I make you feel me
Or do you already do
Why not let me know?
Tell me when to stop
I look back on the day I saw your face
A beautiful being stood in front of me
Everything became a breeze
Things were moving smoothly
Got a chance to know you
Opened me up, peeked inside for a preview
What is the next move?
Eyes had a unspeakable communication
Found your hands meet with my skin
Your presence fills me up
What goes on in that head
How many times do I pass through
Tangles of time straining occupation
Think about it every second
The thought of you takes a toll on me
Let go, let you do all these things
Without you knowing
But I'm scared
What if I say the wrong thing
You dislike repeating yourself
Sometimes I just like the sound of your voice
Don't mean to aggravate or frustrate you
But I love the way say every single word
I …

The Space Shuttle

The actual name for it was 280 Catamaran Super Sonic
But I had to give it a less flashy name
Space Shuttle was still cool and folks knew what it was
There were only 5 made throughout the whole universe
Didn't want Spartans of Space to think I was one to show off
So, Space Shuttle stuck
I remember the times
I was cruising on air over heated concrete
I mean, the wheels on the red and white express weren't even rolling
We were floating
Those where the days
The shuttle was so fly, it could touch the sky
And folks thought it was slow
They thought I didn't know how to steer that big o machine
I showed them, I showed them ALL
I used phonebooks in the seat because I was five foot small
A pillow was added on top to add comfort to those three thick stacks of books
The interior was burnt red with wood grain every where
Those were the expensive kind when the wood grain was added
Mine was top of the line
It was better than the Turbo Python 3000
There was a television tube in it, how rad is that?
Everyone wa…

Before Bedtime

Eyes get heavy
Thoughts of you clutter my mind
Promise myself to bring myself to level ground
Can't tell you all of my thoughts
Some have to remain safe
I would like not to get hurt
Limbs become numb
Stretch and the needles move along the way
Stomach feels empty
It's almost midnight
In some sense, it is normal
What happens next with us
Backing off
Providing you with an adequate amount of space
Expectations of anything
Have left my mind for right now
I think, I think
Those thoughts still protrude
Too frequently perhaps
Have an early morning
Have a long day
Those ecru colored sheets and the
Caramel cinnamon coffee latte tinged comforter
Whisper my name
As I gaze at it
Numbness has departed
What to do with you
What will happen when I see you
Unspoken words I know you carry
Yet you fail to express
Glass of ice-cold water would be refreshing
No energy to travel nineteen steps
Stomach is talking aloud
I ate good...
A few hours ago
I should be asleep by now
I look at my phone thinking what if you call
Would I be awake…


So traditional
Why don't you change
Change stubborn ways you hold
Seek adventure
What's your greatest fear
Could you possibly enjoy life
You choose to be this way
I pray you remove yourself
Demanding you are
Want everything on your time
Life isn't just about you
The circle moves on
Loosen up
Cherish was has been given
Bless the air you breathe
Accept me as your own
Let insecurities dissipate
Fulfill yourself with happiness
Understand the definition of karma
Tradition for you is the safe zone
Step into a contemporary realm
And comprehend me
Step down from your royal high thrown
Let go of the pressure
Release the tension
Its okay


Conversation fell somewhere between the cracks
Buried itself in earth's core
Photographs at one point deserved their frame
Empty frames now sit without purpose
Journal entry type memories
Salted by ignorance
Made our way under each other's skin
And that was okay then
Nothing had to be said or expressed
We had one another in an emotional straitjacket
Gratified communication drew empty
Not enough depth existed to replenish it
Moods would fluctuate
Being mad or frustrated would come and go
Forget all material things that were contributed
The spirit and joy of experiencing one another
Held more value
Time would pass and we'd still have trouble
There was a better comprehension of me
Than there was of us
Hearts would fight for one another
In fear of something being lost
Determination severed into tiny unfix able pieces
No more war, but hurt still prevails
Dismissing never proved to be true
Perhaps it's different now

Remove Me

Here I am
Riding this part of my life
Waiting to break free
I am here to service only
Cooking and cleaning
Whatever is asked
I have no preference
Nor perspective here
Yes ma'am
Yes sir
I am here at your hand and foot
God grant a visible path
Help me to survive
The journey is long
Life for me has become weak
My soul has struggled to carry me
Time and time again
When will it all surpass
I have no say
My duties are my life's credit
I serve an earthly master
I exist in this time frame for one reason
Lord strengthen me
For I know this isn't concrete

Freedom of Religion?

In the Bill of Rights under the First Amendment it clearly states:
Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.

Bill in Congress makes it a crime for pastors and churches to speak against homosexuality

American Family Association ^ 14 June 2007 Donald E. Wildmon

If pastors and other Christians don’t aggressively oppose a bill now in Congress, in the near future they will be subject to huge fines and prison terms if they say anything negative about homosexuality.
The proposed law would make it a crime to preach on Romans Chapter 1 or I Corinthians Chapter 6. Or even to discuss them in a Sunday School class. If churches and individuals want to keep the government from telling them what they can and cannot preach and teach about homosexuality, they better get involved …


Make you think
Change your mind
Consider another route
See me here
In your view
Blind your not
Make me new
Sing to me
With your mood
Unexplainable feel
Small notions
Big differences
Obvious attraction
Cool breeze
Nothing heated, yet
Easy flow
Thoughts of you
Scared you
No intention
Question your own wishes
Let them be twisted
What do you want
Fleshy moments
Would it be enough
Question the satisfaction
Pie or the crumb
Little, just a taste
Grab the whole, too much for you
I like the idea
Make no compromises
Selfish me
Wanting only for myself
Smile I do
Laugh, you make me
Butterfly feeling
Happy bliss
No regret, not one
Lion man
Weird print
Beautiful toes
Acceptance of you
Make you laugh
Deny you must
You know what exist
Inform me
Leave confusion by it self
Human addiction
Presence of another
Uncensored glaze
What did that mean
Computer, ofc
Table, jh
Observant you
Sweet time
Would you allow more
Fill me up
Checking me
Clever you
Warn me of affection
Hold me captive
Tight hugs
And more
Too good
Make you think
I know
Healthy r…

Out of Character

Every time I do this
I get messed up
What the hell was I thinking
My hopeful thoughts keeps me sinking
Moments, priceless moments
First time for everything
Look at you notice me
Absorb my thoughts without me knowing
How could he know
How can he see
I'm acting out of Character
It was nothing more
Nothing more for me
Just an experience for me to live
My nose is running
I'm filled with irritation
Damn, I really fell, and I said I wouldn't
I made premonitions
How dumb of me
I enjoy every conversation
Listen carefully; soak in every word
I'm acting out of Character
What do I do
How do I fix me
More than a sexual attraction
Its sensual, intellectual, free, and mind blowing
Water fills my eyes
I don't cry; tears don't deserve such a moment
There is nothing lost
You are incapable of giving me
What I know I want
I'm acting out of Character
My mistake for looking so deep right, should this be my regret
I overwhelmed me
Stay away
I'm no good for you
You don't benefit
*Feel on me
Touch me in places…

Come To Me

I miss you
We met in the park
I watched you as everyone around gave you admiration
I soon knew then I wouldn't be able to live without you
I remember when I used to listen to you on the front porch
You would speak to me
Present words that I understood
Presented words that changed my traditional perspectives
You read me like a book, knew me like the back of your hand
Your story, your rhyme was my story, and my rhyme
You are genuine and I embrace you like a mother to a child
Years flew by
You started to change or you became missing
Help me define which one
Folks take your name in vain
With little to no disregard
I'd get pissed and still do cause I wouldn't know what to do
I tried to preach it to the rest that you were real
They... they tarnish you and I can't shine as quick as the damage is being done
I remember everyone used to bob their heads
With the words that would come through from you
Tell it to the women who try to put you high with their clitoris handed to you on platters
That you do…

Allow the Conversation

I want to have a moment with you to share what has been on my mind. I want to share these intimate thoughts with you because I want us to both be aware, because you are my dear friend. Let us not hide from one another our silent emotions or fears, but explore them to help us understand each other more clearly. This photograph is to represent our friendship, no matter what form or shape we take to arrive to this point. This photograph is to represent deep thought and comprehension shared between you and I. Be the air that purifies me. Marinated thoughts to provide fulfilling conversation. Truth resides between the both of us; the foundation of our present and future. In depth, up close, intimate, clear, stabled, confident, forgiving comprehensible communication is the soil that helps us flourish.

Lion Hunt

Think it was an automatic jump off
Flying of positive vibes every where
Occasional conversations, really really good conversations
Nothing ever too much, but uh...
Real smooth and free flowing type conversations
Laughing out loud, he makes me smile
I think he might know these things
Maybe I make my self obvious
Or not
I say its nothing, and maybe it is nothing
Just good ole friends getting together
I see him look at me and question what the looks mean?
I won't know, true
But I wonder
This whole gig is sweet, fun, fulfilling, and needed
Just friends I say
No commitment , I know
I'd be unfair, and indeed selfish
To think I could provide him a bit of me
Would our faces ever meet to greet the lips on which we speak
The world would bloom Japanese cherry blossoms
And paint this picture of something ideal that
I possibly would not be prepared for
Keeping all on copacetic levels
Because here, on these levels, I'm stable, I'm together
No fear of nothing lost
Living in this exhilarated experience
On this…


I remember you trying to convince me to come back to Charlotte so that we could get up with one another. I fought with myself that night trying to figure out what to do. I stayed put that night with the reminder of you leaving the next morning to head back home. It burned me up inside and out. I let you go back home and to think I was only an hour away from Charlotte. Regretting it, disappointing myself, and found myself lost with excitement. Like a young girl filled with infatuation. You had an Ora that surrounded you that I wanted to be a part of. I anticipated conversations. I knew you were a work-oholic so I learned to balance myself when it came to you. Sudden talk of tea bumped everything up to a different level. You sent me an experience by mail. I just knew I was getting the most exclusive and the most genuine herbs. Everything about the idea of tea became second nature to my daily regiment. So I put on this joint by Goapele, and it had me in this mood. It, this hard to descri…

Sweet As 3.14159...

You sexy thing you
Walk into my life with,
your gorgeous smile
I think of you often
I think of a probable future
Don't know what it is
That has me caught up like this
Always on my hip
My #1 on speed dial
Tell me what you do
Strung out on you
You make me sing
You make me fly
My heart flutters when I see you
I explode with emotion
And don't know what to do
We stick together like
Honey and a bee
Needing each other on a day to day
You are my wish, my dream
My hope for us

Sweet into Sour

Mellow your voice
Words to sooth
Entertain simple thoughts
A negative major
We go on
I think of you
Allowed myself to settle
Look forward to something new
Tired of doubting us
We kept it fresh
I adapted patience
Observed our vibes
Thinking we were made
Thought too much
Expected too much
You are impermanent
Clear lesson
Not yet knowing, then
Reality hit
Unanswered calls
No returned calls
I wait
One day into three
Three into two months
How funny
Sweet turned sour
Without indication nor explanation
Its okay
We go on
We go on

Foolish Me

What a fool to believe that you were an opportunity Tell me what I did to make you move on Why isn't that you couldn't just come to me and communicate I didn't know I made things difficult for you The little things I did for you thinking you would appreciate Thought I would be an interest when we played ball together You stuck in my head like plaque to enamel But you see the great thing is, this plaque, this thought of you can be removed I won't deny that moments spent with you They were an experience Can't find one moment we shared to complain about That's why its hard for me to understand what happened You made everything sound easy going Foolish of me to believe you were true But isn't that our duty, to provide one with the contingency to be tangible But why? Where did you go or vanish to? Why leave me to make assumptions? My fault that I engaged so quickly Should have left you a bit more curious and anxious to know who I was The invitation you persuaded was make-believe Ma…

Because You Like PURPLE

I listened to you Thought you heard my words Allowing your lies to seek in Like weeds through cracked pavement I believed We spoke of never happening ideas Your mind was made up But because you liked Purple I fell hard for you Led me into a numbness You could do whatever And I saw no wrong That's how caught up I was But because you liked Purple I reminded myself of how you came to be A twisted vine that doen't straighten

Only You

Seems that only you have me this way
In the position of you constantly on my mind
What kind of bull shit is this?!
Here I am thinking we were this "something"
Because clearly we fell far from nothing
And now here I stand, looking at the situation
Asking why
Why is it you couldn't answer any of my phone calls
What did I do to push you away
How could you do this to me
You played such a great game
And to think I actually joined in thinking you were real
What a great cover
Seems that only you have me this way
Listening to all your words and believing
What else is there to assume when you give me nothing
Here I am out on a limb
You got my nose wide open before the simple kiss
Like you the cocaine and I'm the addict whose craving
What a trip
To think you were the one who didn't want to get hurt
Look where the confusion fell
My fault to get so involved
My fault to expect so much
What the hell was I thinking
Well, now I know
Seems that only you have me this way
Too bad this had to be the lesson

Lecture, Compare and Ruin

It is so easy for you to compare one to another, with little information or enthusiasm about who or what you are comparing.
There is nothing you can boast because you, with shame know little to nothing.
Me being an artist is nothing on any level that you can comprehend because you choose not to.
The disappointment that seeps out is clear as water and is as thick as oil.
You choose what to be excited about, and my being an artist isn’t one of them.
Tell me what I thrive to be, tell me what I love to do, or tell me where my inspiration derives from.
Do you know I like to drink hot tea over Sade' any day?
What exactly do you know about someone you've know all of my twenty-three years?!
There is nothing for me to fix in the flesh. I can only pray. When will it change your blind perspectives?
I cannot change your mind if it doesn’t want to be changed.
Only one person exist that I have to prove anything to, and that is I.
One year can be far different than the rest if I choose it to be.
The wil…

Your Moment: My Expierence During It

I met a young man I thought could be a “possibility.”
I didn’t at all try to force anything, but I admit I got excited when I shouldn’t have. Beginning to find out who he was, he gave me a fair warning; so that when this (these moments) happened, I wouldn’t be alarmed.
But instead, my emotions got the very best of me, because it was something I was unfamiliar with, this is what evolved from those emotions…

Getting used to...
The first time you perhaps ignored my phone call or a text messages that I sent; I was I think Okay with it.
I remember when you told me, when we started to get to know each other, even still not completely, that you would have moments where you wouldn’t talk to any one, not even me.
So now that I know this, and have this thought of this is what you are going through, it bothers me, and it shouldn’t. Right?
So you fore warned me and I say thank you.
Its something I must get used to, would you say, lol?
The problem (if thats the word it really should be called) is that you …


1. an inspiring or animating action or influence: I cannot write poetry without inspiration.
2. something inspired, as an idea.
3. a result of inspired activity.
4. a thing or person that inspires.
5. Theology.
-a. a divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul.
-b. the divine quality of the writings or words of a person so influenced.
6. the drawing of air into the lungs; inhalation.
7. the act of inspiring; quality or state of being inspired.

—Synonyms 1. stimulus, incitement. - My inspiration comes from a will and determination that derives from my father. A push into a future of where my dreams have led me. He provides the resources for development, encouragement for growth and love to discipline.

When It's Real

Its been burning me up, this passion of mine. Everything in the past few months has been a drag. I want it so bad. My mentor on occasion has told me when you desire something with so much aggression, it will show. The journey to get there will seem tough, you'll find yourself becoming impatient and it will seem as though you never get there. My goal is simple, how to get there is simple, my connections are legit, everything is I suppose what it should be. But why in the hell does it have to burn me out. Of course I have the constant voice in the back of my head, "if the road isn't difficult, how do you learn to appreciate whats in store at the end of it?" Being thankful. I've had my days of depression and disappointment. I've had more days of eagerness. But I push, and I've prevailed. I know in the end it will be okay. I have to remember that I have it better than some, no, not to assume that I am better than others, no... Its just means that I am blessed…

Falling In Love

You fell in love before you knew him,
you fell in love with his love making,
you fell in love with the wrong thing.
You young naive developed pretty thing,
honey you are uneducated.
You know what you do but you know not what "you do."
You know everything don't you?, so why
the tight clothes, the dirty mouth, the high heel shoes.
Sweet young thing you, you're only fourteen.
Use that mind, not your ass to attract
You keep your eyes covered, don't be blind.
Educate yourself and earn self worth.
Stop being taken advantage of.
Don't allow men to rub themselves on your curves.
Your life here on the green is short lived.
Open yourself up to opportunities.
Bottom line, don't be "free."
Be responsible, stay knowledge filled.
A female is a strong being,
and she can be as independent as she chooses.
Great males exist, don't settle for comfort.
Being comfortable is good, but there's always better.
Work for what you deserve, love ain't easy.
Desperation is not attracti…

Ye'sir Masa'sir

Let Freedom Ring, I say

There is a man that is referred to as "Masa" (master).
He is kind at times, but he can bite like a snake.
The hurt from it demolishes you.
His money is his heaven
Go get me some food he say.
Come on, come on, I'm hungry he say.

to be continued...

Extended or Not

You are my sister, extended or not.
I have done nothing to hurt you, not intentionally at least.
I was not the distributing factor of how my life began.
So, I rest my voice, I rest my energy, and let you go on.
I let you live without my constant aggravation.
And I still love you without even knowing you.
How come?
Then back again...
Be my "big sister", be my example, let me wear your clothes without asking.
Let me do what sisters naturally do.
So forth I've learned through attempts that my aggressiveness has gotten me the total opposite response that wasn't intended.
I sit back, allow my emotions to fill my face and form ponds of tears.
Will you ever be available for a different, unique, frightening, but brand new sisterhood?
You are a woman, as well as I.
And so easy is for me to see how afraid we can me, and how childlike we are.
Life moves like air.
We share moments with people all day long, and one day moments become memories that we find ourselves reminiscing about.