It Should Be

I love
I love to love
Love being wanted
Love being put first
Can you pretend if you don't know how
Can you inquire and seek guidance
Because that's the attention I seek

I want my words, my thoughts and tears to make a difference
I want to share conversations that encompass us
I need to forgive myself for not being who you need me to be
And to apologize and ask for forgiveness
I need to write again

I don't doubt you love me
I don't doubt your loyalty
I just don't trust its enough
As it should be
It Should be

I remember me before you
Held an alluring eccentricity
Embodied irresistible abnormalities
I look back and see traces
I want her to return
I want her back

How do I return