"lets talk"

not knowing-
it sounds so negative
irritating not knowing the good or bad
you don't want to talk about it (right now)
leave me with the idea of the conversation
where could it lead or end

fixated on wondering-
you know when you told me
told me we needed to talk
my heart fell into my lungs
my emotions cut themselves out of me
i sat there a little dismembered

now knowing-
now that i know what it is
what it is that you were waiting to tell me
my emotions are jammed-can't think
it isn't easy dealing with it
but i trust you